That amazing moment when you realize
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I’ve been on a chicken salad diet ever since IÂ foundÂ out my guy best friend told my sister I was too fat to be loved.
I am FAT.
And I am afraid that if I were to LOSE WEIGHT, I still wouldn’t be BEAUTIFUL.
I’m anorexic..but I like food too much to stop eating.
I don’t understand why I can’t stop.
I know I’m anorexic because I’m 15, 5’5, and weigh 93 pounds.
Every time I look in the mirror, there’s fat I see that I want so badly to get rid of. I’ve cried over that so many times. I’ve cut over it.
I wouldn’t be so heart broken if I could stop eating. but I can’t.
I hate this.
At 15, my first boyfriend was a gangster. After a Â year and two months, he broke up with me.
He’ll never know I went three weeks without eating because I thought my FAT was the reason he dumped me.
My teacher always talks about FAT people.
Everytime he does, I CUT myself because part of me is sure he means me because everyone else in that class is THIN.
I secretly hate my best friend for losing weight because now she isn’t the fat friend, I am.
The only reason i haven’t killed myself is I’m scared I’ll look FAT at my funeral…