Angel would have been 12. Her siblings 16, 11 and 10.
I fear I won’t have ever have a chance again because I didn’t want any of them, even though I’m a different person now.
I’m afraid to have children…
I’m afraid they’ll be like me…
and they’ll hurt me like I hurt my parents.
The reason I don’t want child is because
I’ll always love my cat more than I could love any
I wonder what you’re thinking about when you hold our son because I know you never wanted him in the first place.
Sometimes I wish I never had her….
… then I wouldn’t have to deal with her father, and court.