I had an abortion.
because I didn’t want my X-BF to find out I was pregnant with is child and hurt him and his NEW GF.
I always assumed we would come back to each other.
After 3 years of pretending not to care I find out you are pregnant and worst of all, happy,Â I still love you and regret not telling you sooner.
I had no idea that you were feeding me venomous lies during our relationship until I saw the engagement ring you bought for HER.
Angel would have been 12. Her siblings 16, 11 and 10.
I fear I won’t have ever have a chance again because I didn’t want any of them, even though I’m a different person now.
These months of silence have been awful…I just don’t know if it’s your depression or if that’s your real personality. I must admit that you broke my heart.
I wish I was ANOREXIC.
I just want to be skinny.
I want to be comfortable in a bikini.
I’m tired of crying everytime I look at myself in the mirror.
Everybody tells me I’m brilliant and a genius.
But I feel too stupid to believe them.
I Â waste my life without doing anything.
And I feel guilty for having betrayed them.
Sometimes I lose track of what is real and what is not.
And I feel different from other people.
Everything looks simple and it makes me arrogant.
I dare not say anything because I don’t want to be locked up again.