, the boy I want to marry, with someone I dont see a future with…..
Because I’ve never been with a guy who didnt hit me, stalk me, compromise me or continuously put me down…
the constant happiness made me anxious.
Now I realize my issues hurt you just like they hurt me.
…but too scared to fall in love again.
but I’m also afraid to take the risk
I told my dad I HATE him and I have blanked him out of my life.
When really I LOVE him more than any of my family who are BETTER to me than he ever was.
I feel the urge to run into traffic.
I hope I’ll get hit.
Because I most likely won’t ever get you back….
I can’t get you out of my head…..
and from this moment on, I will be happy.
You saw my notebook yesterday morning.
i don’t love me.
and that’s how i understand why you don’t either.