You didn’t show that you cared until I learned how to survive without YOU.

You didn’t show that you cared until I learned how to survive without YOU. Thanks Dad, You taught me how to parent because you sucked so much.

After 3 years you still haven’t’ noticed.

After 3 years you still haven’t noticed. I’m glad I don’t scar easily.

Everyday I pretend that im someone im not..

Everyday I pretend that im someone im not in hopes that one day someone would see through me.

I wish you loved me more than I love you.

I wish you loved me more than I love you. So I dont feel like I’ve ignored everything I’ve ever told myself not to do.

Sometimes I wish I had an abusive childhood..

Sometimes I wish… I had an abusive childhood. then maybe i’d have a reason for my self loathing.

Look me in the eyes and tell me that you honestly think I am happy.

Look me in the eyes and tell me that you honestly think I am happy.

I can only orgasm when I think about the man I love dying.

I can only orgasm when I think about the man I love dying. I am afraid someday I will act out my fantasy… (and no one will stop me)  

I recently moved to another county, 1000 miles from my old friends and family…

I recently moved to another county, 1000 miles from my old friends and family… Ive never been happier.