Everytime I see the door unlocked,

Everytime I see the door unlocked,

I feel the urge to run into traffic.

I hope I’ll get hit.

33 Comments on “Everytime I see the door unlocked,

  1.  by  Antithesis

    Don’t. It is better to live on than to leave your friends and family behind to deal with your loss. I can’t imagine what I would have done to those I love if my suicide attempt last October had succeeded.

  2.  by  Anonymous

    Sometimes, when I’m driving, I have the random impulse to drive my car straight off the road into a tree. I was going to go for a drive last night when I realized I might have that same impulse again. I crashed in my friend’s room instead, telling him not to ask questions. I could never put my sister through that.

  3.  by  Joey

    Some one will most definitely miss you! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know things must be hard for you right now but try to find out why you want to end your life. I know how much horrible circumstances can destroy part of who you are and I know its the worst feeling in the world. But don’t kill yourself. Find someone..even if its a suicide hotline worker or a therapist through the local Health Department or clinic and just let your feelings out to them. Some one always loves you and needs you in their life. I promise people care even if it doesn’t seem like it! Hugs..

  4.  by  rhcp993pc

    I have felt the same way. Honestly as silly as it sounds, sometimes it really is tempting, somtimes the only thing that stops me is the fear that if I did die, I would not be in a place that I wanted to be, i.e. hell, I do not even believe in that sorta thing, and after all that all I feel like is a coward. Making me want to follow through even more so the next time I fell the impulse…..always fight it, you are not a coward for choosing to live.

  5.  by  Someone out there

    I’ve been where you have been. I know you feel like everything is worthless but people really care. If you say no ones care about you, we’ll your wrong. I CARE!

  6.  by  Loveisthemovement

    Please don’t give up. Please. Someone loves you- I love. It can only get better.

  7.  by  starryeyedandfxckingblind

    I feel your pain.
    It’s a compulsive thought and I never know if I’ll end up doing it or not. the best thing to do is lock the door and keep testing it to make sure it’s locked.

  8.  by  hopeless

    sometimes when i drive i get the impulse to speed through red lights…. and i hope i get hit and dont survive… i thought it was normal to have those impulses

  9.  by  torn2pieces

    If my boyfriend ever left me I would kill myself. He’s litarally all I have left. I used to cut & I’m afraid ill want to do more. My mother died from suicide.

  10.  by  Riley

    i completely understand. the endless car rides where my mom is screaming at me, i once unbuckled my seat belt to see if shed even stop. she didnt. but dont do it please, i dont know you, but that doesnt matter in knowing that there are more people that understand you and can help

  11.  by  BlueCrimson

    When ever I’m walking by the side of the road I imagine what it’d be like to get hit by a car, whether it’s by accident or from me throwing myself into on coming traffic.

    It’s not that I really want to end my life. I just want things to JUST STOP for a little bit; freeze so that I can take a breather.

    But honestly, I’m really glad it doesn’t because some of my happiest memories happened when time was just speeding right on by.

    I don’t want to miss out on anything. I want to live my life with the one I love, have his children, and JUST BE HAPPY.

  12.  by  SC

    I totally feel your pain and understand where you are coming from. Ironically, I was pretty depressed and suicidal for the first time in my life a couple years ago, until I was hit in a random, horrible car accident. I was rear-ended at 50 mph, by a guy looking at directions rather than the road ahead, while I was stopped, blinker on, waiting to turn onto my street–my car was crushed and just barely missed hitting two other cars head on.

    It’s crazy now for me to look back and think back about that moment and how it’s changed my life forever—at first for the worst healthwise, then for the better in realizing how until you lose everything when you least expect it, you don’t realize how life precious really is and all you really have. A year, two major surgeries later, and having to be on intravenous antibiotics for 8 months to fight off a life threatening internal infection I got as a result of the accident, I am in a better state of mind than ever before. It was a wake up call for me in terms of how I think about life in general.

    Dealing with major health issues and the fact that so many other people could have been hurt and/or died in the accident that day, has brought a new perspective, a fresh beginning, a belief that everyday we are given on this Earth really does matter and has meaning. Everybody has meaning, YOU have meaning, trust me! And please, please, please never put other people’s lives in harms way because your own life seems not worth it anymore. Because your life is worth it, you have a purpose and are here for a reason.

    To the person who said sometimes they have the urge to “speed through red lights, get hit, and die”, I feel your pain and am sorry you are hurting. But in doing so, you would not only end your path to you discovering the truly special person you are, but could hurt innocent others. What if in the process of doing so, you killed innocent drivers or injured them so badly their lives would never be the same? You have no idea the hurt and pain this would cause so many other people–complete strangers, their families, and friends. Lives changed forever.

    To everyone on here, I’ve felt your same thoughts before but have had a change of heart, I hope you all in time also realize how much life is worth living and how you have a purpose, there’s a reason you are alive. You’re uniquely special–we all are. I wish everyone on here the best. Much love 🙂

  13.  by  Jynxx

    So do I. But I don’t. And you shouldn’t, either.


  14.  by  Jess

    I often get a urge to start speeding up and slamming into something…a tree, building, another car. And hoping I die. My bf and I were fighting one time and I was driving and it was the closest I had ever been to doing it. I feel you. I do. But it wont be worth it. Just breath and try to calm down. <3

  15.  by  Gabsterz

    I have done things like this. Sometimes I’ll be driving on the freeway and have the urge to drive into the center divider. I’ve also jumped off a roof and ended up landing in a huge pile of snow somehow, overdosed on pills, and even cut. I’m in a better place in my life now and I now see that I was trying to seek escape through temporary means. Believe me, give things time and they will get better. Someone loves you whether they tell you or not.

  16.  by  mai

    I often feel the same way when we drive on the freeway, but don’t because I don’t want my boyfriend to get blamed for pushing me out of the car…

  17.  by  smith

    i feel so low inside. as if i battle with my own thoughts of the sweet release of death every day. its hard. i often wish i had the courage to go through with it.

  18.  by  Emmy2020

    I used to think that for a while, but things started to look up. Then when I was finally happy, I really did get hit by a car and things haven’t been the same since. I know what it’s like. I hope your case won’t ever be the same as mine, getting what you asked for… When you see those headlights, all you can think of is how you wish you had more time. Instead of trying to end life, try to make it better. Fight back. You are loved and there are so many people that can help.

  19.  by  v

    whenever a car is going fast, i always get the urge to open the door and jump out, praying that i’ll die but i couldn’t do that to the people that love me because i care too much about them. i can’t even tell them anything because i don’t want to have them worry about me but the truth is, i’m in a state of depression and i deny it when i’m asked. not telling anyone is making the depression worst but i need to take care of them, how can i make them worry about me when they have other stuff too?

  20.  by  music saved my soul

    i had the same urge a couple of days ago while on the freeway, my brother was driving and my uncle was in the back, the only thing that stopped me was that i didn’t want them blamed for my death.

  21.  by  love.me.from.the.inside.out.

    Sometimes as i’m riding in the car i feel the urge toopen my door and jump out, just to get hurt & see who truly cares about me enough to visit me in a hospital or take care of me. I all the time wish I had some illness so that people would show they cared. One of my friends recently died and none of the people who were concerned about it were actually his friends while he was alive. Why don’t people care like that when we’re still in the flesh?

  22.  by  Streetballa20

    please don’t. you can get through whatever it is. there are real people all over the place. talk to a few good ones. they’ll help you find your way. sometimes i feel like im the crappy kid because my older brother is always straight As and perfect while i just lose my work, forget things, and misbehave and flirt with girls all day. but there are real friends that will help you, or if you go to church and find someone really sincere and caring. there’s tons of good people in churches and other places everywhere. Now i have a great girl, a 4.5 GPA for AP classes, and life is great.

  23.  by  MrSj

    I actually did run into a tree on purpose. I just stood up for my friend and got into a fight for her and she just stared and she was twice my size…. She could have helped me when two others jumped on me too. Afterwards I told her to get out of my car and she wouldn’t so I ran into a tree looked at her and said. Now get out. I had had urges before to run into things. Probably because I wasn’t getting my way. Not that I wanted money or some dumb shit but I mean not getting my way by my children’s father staying out all night and when I’d find him he wouldn’t have even an answer I thought I deserved. In short emotional pain and non validation made me want to do it. I am really lucky I didn’t hurt anyone. I hit the steering wheel with my chin and I could feel a lil piece had chipped off under my skin. But I get so hurt and angry I can’t show physical pain. It actually feels better then the emotional hurt. I was very lucky to have my life I was less than a foot away on either side of a electrical box and on thee other a metal pole. The tree was rotting and it actually cushioned my impact making it come out of the ground. I regret doing it and once I did it. I stopped getting similar urges. Good luck. Smoke some weed it helps a lot!

  24.  by  phrogg

    I feel the same way… I don’t know why. Objectively, my life isn’t really that bad. It’s just an impulse I have… maybe I’m running from something my subconscious sees but won’t let my conscious mind in on it.

  25.  by  Alexa

    I want to do the same thing, not so much to die but to see who truly cares about me…I’m aware that this is a sick way to look at things but…It’d be nice to know who really cares, and loves me.

  26.  by  glenda

    so far i have come up with a 100 different ways to kill myslef, but i havent gone through with any of them because of my mom. i think she is the ONLY person who would care.

  27.  by  glenda

    so far i have come up with a 100 different ways to kill myself, but i havent gone through with any of them because of my mom. i think she is the ONLY person who would care.

  28.  by  16&tryingtohelp

    i have never had suicidal thoughts before, but I’ve had friends who have. I don’t know who you are, but that doesn’t matter to me. You should know that people love you. They may not come up to you every day and say “I love you” but they do. They are in the smallest places, but they are there. And please, don’t take your life. You were born into this world to live a beautiful life, and that’s what I think you should do. Everyone lives life roughly, some more than others, but what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. Like I said, I don’t know who you are, there aren’t very many , if any things to say to make you fell better, but I know one thing. You will be ok. I believe in you, now you have to believe in yourself.

  29.  by  Jenn

    I’ve felt the same way. I’m glad my car doors automatically lock when I drive.

  30.  by  Ryan

    I get that too. Moments of wanting to just end it. Right now, im thinking of it. I’m tired.

  31.  by  Allie

    I feel the same way. The only thing that’s keeping me from actually doing it is the fear that it doesn’t work. I cut myself every day to deal with these thoughts. I wish you all the best!

  32.  by  Anonymous

    Suicide is a solution to very, very old problems. Some people might be impulsive, but a lot of people have tried a very long time to solve their “temporary problem”.

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