The one that gets drunk and has a threesome…. with another girl
, the boy I want to marry, with someone I dont see a future with….. Because I’ve never been with a guy who didnt hit me, stalk me, compromise me or continuously put me down… the constant happiness made me anxious. Now I realize my issues hurt you just like they hurt me.
…but too scared to fall in love again.
but I’m also afraid to take the risk
I told my dad I HATE him and I have blanked him out of my life. When really I LOVE him more than any of my family who are BETTER to me than he ever was.
I feel the urge to run into traffic. I hope I’ll get hit.
Because I most likely won’t ever get you back…. I can’t get you out of my head…..
right now. and from this moment on, I will be happy.