I still check my missed call list

I still check my missed call list

I still check my missed call list to see if you ever called and I just didn’t get it.




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Comment by Sophie. Subscribed to comments via email
2009-03-26 07:43:10

I do that to.

 
Comment by Sunshine
2009-03-27 04:01:32

I check my phone for new text messages from him constantly. Even after we say goodnight. I wait to see if he has more to say. He never does, but i will keep checking because its how i am

Comment by secrets
2009-04-28 09:23:54

i’ve started to stop myself from replying because i know then i’ll have had the last word and be waiting an age for him to reply. sometimes i wish that same insecurity would plague him for once. but i really don’t think he saves my texts the way i save and reread his.

Comment by hurt
2009-05-11 22:28:21

and when i do that he just never texts or calls and i break inside.

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Comment by Sophie. Subscribed to comments via email
2009-03-27 06:54:26

You aren’t the only one. I tell my self that I there won’t be a message and it isn’t worth checking, but I always do anyway.

Comment by Christine
2009-04-08 17:55:25

wow, i do the exact same thing even though i know that the one txt i want to see will never be there. he will never say, “i made a mistake, i want you back…” and it crushes me inside.

Comment by el
2009-04-15 23:18:53

i wake up in the morning and compulsively check my email and phone to see if you left me a message, to see if sometime during the night you thought of me and realized that you love me, that you’ve realized that i’m special.

then i remember that you’ve always thought of me as the “kid sister” you never had, and feel sick.

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Comment by Sunshine
2009-04-24 13:38:37

I KNOW!!!! he calls me his little sister. I want to marry him.It breaks my heart

 
 
Comment by Dez Burton Subscribed to comments via email
2009-04-20 20:36:08

I do the same thing. Hasn’t happened yet. :( He was wonderful, though!

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Comment by Pao Laten Subscribed to comments via email
2009-07-24 13:35:28

Samesies. I had to go talk with him to clear things up ’cause he just didn’t have the courage to even talk to me for 3 weeks. It was easier to forget him after I faced him =]

 
 
 
 
Comment by Ron
2009-03-30 09:21:02

I look for text messages before i go to bed, hoping there’s something from her. I send good night text’s a couple times a week hoping I’ll get some back. I know she’s fine, I just want to be reassured I guess. Maybe someday she’ll get text messaging on her phone again.

 
Comment by Eudae
2009-03-30 11:48:56

This is so sweet. I wish I could say I do that too, but I just know he never did.

 
Comment by Sally
2009-04-07 03:13:11

I did it too, but it’s because I thought you meant it when you said I’ll call. I deleted your number

Comment by you know
2009-05-02 16:15:10

i wish i had your strength.

 
 
Comment by Summer Subscribed to comments via email
2009-04-08 12:08:10

I stopped checking because I finally realized that I was going to be fine with or with-out him. It just takes time.

 
Comment by bee.
2009-04-11 23:25:59

i even gave him his own ring tone so i know its him right away.
its your call by secondhand seranade.
i still havent heard it.
but i wont change it.

Comment by jgirl
2009-05-14 10:09:04

I’ve done the same thing…still haven’t heard it either.

 
 
Comment by Aubree Subscribed to comments via email
2009-04-14 17:46:25

this guy i like he doesnt have my number i dont have his
but yet everytime i get a text i always hope that somehow he got my number and is texting me
same with calls
or ill even turn my phone on silent so ill be surprised i got a text from him
never happenss
=[

 
Comment by rach Subscribed to comments via email
2009-04-16 20:50:52

i do that all the time now too..
it was the last day of tafe we were on da train i bluetoothed him my number…he knew it was me
i neva got a call or txt..it would have been nice 2 keep in touch

 
Comment by mira Subscribed to comments via email
2009-04-16 21:39:36

I’m in denial with myself.
I say in my mind ‘oh i’m checking for so and so’s text’
when in reality i’m reading the one’s he sent me.
And i’m constantly checking his myspace top friends to see if him and his girlfriend broke up.
Even though i know they didn’t.
God she’s so much more pretty than me
>.<

 
Comment by Becky
2009-04-17 05:47:35

I’m still hoping, even though it will never happen.
I’ll beat it in the end..

Comment by x
2009-05-11 22:30:22

and i’m so fucking scared that i will never stop hoping and will never beat it in the end.

 
 
Comment by Jane
2009-04-20 20:03:11

i do it too…i know he won’t call.but there’s always that hope.

 
Comment by choked
2009-04-20 21:59:19

i racked up 500 $ in texts back and forth in a month talkin to you, and then u got back with your ex, id pay a grand just for u to say hey

 
Comment by ruby
2009-04-23 20:05:38

i do that with my email..

Comment by me
2009-04-24 16:27:12

i want to. i just can’t. but i wish you would email me.
i miss you. and ruby.

 
 
Comment by kelsey ann
2009-04-24 12:36:04

Wow i think once again we all have been there I remember once he called me and then said he would call right back….. I waited 6 hours for him to call, it was like 4:30 in the morning and he still didn’t call!!! Then i found out that he was with another girl that night!

 
Comment by Jessica Faye
2009-04-24 14:16:59

I do the same thing. But, he never calls anymore. Its been 3 weeks today.

 
Comment by Jennifer
2009-04-24 21:07:52

i do it all the time. and i know he isn’t calling or texting because he is with her…

 
Comment by linda
2009-04-26 15:50:38

I did the same.

I checked my e-mails at least 10 or 15 times every day, i kneew i’m gonna lose my mind.
now i’m over it, but i still can not delet one single sms from him, it says that he misses me. I want to keep the only thing what proves that it really happened, that he used to have feelings for me, that i wasn’t just fooling myself.
i’m so mad at him, he took one whole year from my life without giving ANYTHING in return. i feel empty, i wish someone would have benefit from the suffering i went trough, but i’m afraid no one did. Not even he.

Comment by Evola
2009-04-26 15:55:07

Hang in there. You’re great.

 
Comment by lost Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-11 22:39:01

I know just how you feel… I still have all the messages that prove it was real… I am beginning to think I won’t ever be over it though. I really hope I am wrong – I want to stop not caring what anyone else thinks and only caring what he thinks – it is shredding my self-esteem. I need the day to come that I can actually be interested in someone else. It is a waste of time being in love with this guy that he pretended to be and doesn’t really exist….

 
 
Comment by P.B.
2009-04-28 16:37:22

It’s the opposite for me. I am the one who texts her. I even leave her flowers at her door with a note telling her I miss her.

She doesn’t even say thank you…

Comment by Sunshine
2009-05-03 04:32:36

thats really sweet, the world needs more guys like you. It’s the same for every person who reads this secret and says “wow thats me too” That person does not deserve our time, but we still give it to them, we still want that little nervous feeling when it’s 2 in the morning and your whole bed starts buzzing because your phone is ringing and for the first time you know its actually them. This week i woke up to a text message from him, “Good morning” all it said, but i don’t know…made me think that there is hope for me and him. So i will continue to check my phone because even thought he does not really deserve the time i put into it… I want to do it because more than anything I want us to be happy together…even if it takes time

 
 
Comment by Allielovesyou
2009-04-30 07:30:53

Aww i always do the same

 
Comment by Laura
2009-05-04 19:15:24

After my boyfriend dumped me, I checked his myspace all the time before I deleted myself from his friends list. Then I still checked it, and just stared at the message that said THIS ACCOUNT IS SET TO PRIVATE. THIS USER MUST ADD YOU TO THEIR FRIENDS LIST IN ORDER TO VIEW THEIR ACCOUNT.

Comment by Pao Laten Subscribed to comments via email
2009-07-24 13:38:18

oh dear… that’s sad. i still have the guy that dumped me on facebook and i wrote him something recently just to find out he had deleted it. Haha better to forget i guess.

 
 
Comment by Christen Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-07 00:18:24

i still check my phone for his calls even though its been over three months since he died. i just keep waiting to see a missed call or text. anything

Comment by Kate Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-08 12:59:43

I do the same thing..it has been over a year.

Comment by Anon
2009-08-13 13:04:24

I have been to quite a few funerals. I have been to a lot of memorial services and wakes. I have seen a lot of poor dirty and downtrodden people. I have looked at a lot of sad pictures.

This ^
right here

this is the saddest
most touching thing
I have ever seen

I am More
I am More for having read this
If only for that
that small bit of comment on a website
I am glad that person existed
so that you could write that
and I could see it

Thank you

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Comment by Anon
2009-05-07 22:41:08

Hey christen

his last words were

I hate you

 
Comment by Mac Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-08 22:02:50

im another guy in that does this same thing….i write on her facebook wall about 4times in a week… without a reply from her….. i end up most of the time saying “hey i wrote on your wall about a week ago ” its always a week ago from the last message i left too…..I always tell myself i’m not going to write another message to make sure she saw the notification and that i’ll just let her write me back and not say anything about it to her…… but i always do both….everytime..

 
Comment by lost Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-08 23:12:55

I do too. I used to continually send messages, but mostly because his way of doing things is avoiding things and whenever there was a problem he would ignore me for awhile but eventually after I bugged him enough he would answer and we would be ok for awhile. But now he pretends like he never said all of the things he said to me, that he never gave me his home number after he stopped having a cell (he claims I kept it from work) and claims I am crazy and a stalker now. The first time I deleted him from IM’s and social nets – this time he did. I got him a new cell but he got it stolen or sold it and disappeared with the crazy stalker story while I was replacing it so now I have 2 cells – one of which I get calls and txts for him on a lot. I have to make a conscious effort not to try to talk to him now since he is being so nuts about it. It is messed up, he spent 2 months messing with my head just to turn it around and tell everyone else that I am crazy – including my daughter’s deadbeat dad. He used my daughter and insecurities to get me to fall in love with him more than I already had and really messed me up emotionally – and yet for some reason I still love him and miss him. I erased his # on my phone, but when I answer a number I don’t recognize with a 425 area code I hope it is him, Everytime I get a new message or email or IM or txt or friend request I hope it is him… I know it won’t be – but I still hope. I check his social nets pretty much daily to make sure he is still ok and wondering if he even cares how much he hurt me…. and I think maybe hoping that I would see something that makes me see that it isn’t just me that he was so crazy with and horrible to or something to help me not think about him and miss him so much and to allow me to move on… I am hopeless. :(

 
Comment by So confused Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-11 16:18:14

I hate to say, but I’m on the other end of these situations to an extent. My ex wants me back desperately, but I’m engaged to another man. I text my ex sometimes and secretly I never want the conversation to end, but it does…

 
Comment by Falling Star
2009-05-14 22:23:14

I do that too even though I know he will never call. :/

 
Comment by Anna Subscribed to comments via email
2010-06-14 12:15:32

Ik how that feels so bad cept it’s txting n I always check my phone n lie 2 myself but I rlly no I’m Cing if he txted me…so now I promised myself to nvr txt him again unless he txts me first which happens but I get rlly annoyed cause he always txts my friend he nvr met cause she has an obession bout him :( it just pisses me off he does that

 
Comment by Eric Subscribed to comments via email
2010-06-14 12:16:54

Same well time heals everything

 
Comment by littlelady Subscribed to comments via email
2010-07-21 21:25:42

His name is saved as “no” in my phone, it’s supposed to make me think before messaging him or replying. it doesnt work, seeing the word ‘no’ just makes me feel sick inside. because he is NOT mine anymore and he chose it that way

 
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