Comments on: i want to feel the sickening and painful effects of anorexia

By: kbug

kbug — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 08:37:31 +0000

It’s not worth it. Trust me. I’m so, so sorry that this is happening to you. Stay strong sweetheart, you’re not alone.

By: jaymonigga

jaymonigga — Fri, 29 Jul 2011 10:29:02 +0000

if those are your pictures u dont gotta trip. but anorexia is stupid anyway. way to be dumb for trynna do that shit

By: Alli

Alli — Tue, 26 Jul 2011 16:31:02 +0000

you have no idea what you are wishing for. your current mindset means that you are already sick and i won’t lie, you have a very long and painful road before you. i have dealt with the disease for 8 years and i can’t tell you pain i, along with my family, have suffered. i’m still sick…not necessarily on the brink of death physically but emotionally i am killing myself. get help before it takes over your entire life. trust me, you don’t want this. i hate how our materialistic society has made a too-thin woman the idealistic image. fight it so that you won’t have to live with it for the rest of your life like i will. and if you think the thoughts of ending your life will disappear if you’re thinner, you are VERY wrong. i’m on anti-depressants and still contemplate walking out into traffic, taking a few too many pills, etc. just to end the hell that was, is, and will be my life. be strong and fight because losing your life to this disease is such a waste.

By: Jenny

Jenny — Sat, 16 Apr 2011 00:03:02 +0000

Anorexia is horrible and PLEASE get help!! I had it for 2years and it has lead to me having a lot of other problems and I’m now bulimic tried to end my life!! Please get help!! An eating disorder is not just some fad diet it’s real and deadly!!!! I’ve lost my teens I never knew hat it was like properly and I don’t want anyone goingthrough the same!!xx

By: opal

opal — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 23:16:30 +0000

I belive in you, you are perfect just the way you are… even if that just sounded super cliche its true!

By: CourtneyD

CourtneyD — Sat, 13 Nov 2010 02:13:58 +0000

You make me sad. I hope you can realize you’re beautiful regardless of weight.

By: thelistener

thelistener — Wed, 03 Nov 2010 07:03:16 +0000

Regardless of the reason behind the disorder it is a very vicious cycle nearly impossible to break and this is a common feeling in victims of this disease. They want to look sick, they want to feel sick, because they hurt all the time inside and they want to exhibit it on the outside-at least that is what several woman I know suffering from this have explained to me. You can not fight this alone, it is far too hard. please, get help <3

By: ncssm

ncssm — Mon, 25 Oct 2010 13:49:38 +0000

I know how you feel. Sometimes I cry because I can’t feel my hunger pains and I’m afraid my diets aren’t working…

By: Danielle

Danielle — Fri, 22 Oct 2010 01:03:55 +0000

I hate being skinny because I’m constantly judged, or I think I am. And I’m afraid that people think I choose to be this weight. Or that I guy will like me because I’m skinny, and I’ll still hate myself.

By: charles nuñez

charles nuñez — Fri, 15 Oct 2010 04:45:30 +0000

hi emily, write me back

By: afkljeaoi

afkljeaoi — Mon, 11 Oct 2010 04:05:07 +0000

You are a fucking idiot. How rude do you have to be to say something as absolutely lethargic as that? You are probably just some ass hole, but I hope you know (and you’ll get some sick satisfaction out of this) that you truly have made many people angry. Fuck off.

By: a friend

a friend — Sun, 10 Oct 2010 23:10:08 +0000

I am praying for you. I feel that pain and longing too, and you can’t give in. You can’t!!! You look the way you look for a reason, and you have a purpose. I don’t know who you are, but I love you.
Please, please don’t lose yourself.

By: lulu

lulu — Thu, 23 Sep 2010 22:59:23 +0000

I hate being skinny, im 5’5 and weight 7 stone, i dont have a eating disorder and am desperately trying to put on weight. . . I used to starve myself when I was younger, I thought being thin would make me pretty and solve all my problems, its just created a whole lot more (worse) issues. I urge ANYONE with a eating disorder to get help. NO ONE will judge you!!! I’m proud I now eat like a whale!! Also if you are worried you are crazy and that people will lock you away dont!! I also have bi-pola (yes my anorexia was related to this) and talking therapies really really work. I know its scary, but what could happen if you dont is much more scary. Youre not alone. Please get help, and imagine me holding your hand every step of the way

By: Tori

Tori — Fri, 20 Aug 2010 19:06:52 +0000

It’s not that easy. Eating disorders lie much deeper than one
s relationship with food; it is about control and controlling one’s food intake is a way of getting that. That’s what makes it so hard to treat.

By: brokenhailo

brokenhailo — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 14:48:04 +0000

I wonder if she’s still alive…

By: Brit

Brit — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 15:49:06 +0000

honestly i feel you are all right. there is no set in stone right or wrong answer because you can never be in another’s head. for one person it is food. for another it is control. but its not worth fighting over. people have their reasons. Accept those reasons and try to help them through it. Thats all we can really do

By: anonymous

anonymous — Thu, 01 Jul 2010 05:50:02 +0000

my sister suffered from this. and i didn’t even know. i was young maybe 9 or 10, but that doesn’t matter. when i found out it broke my heart. i cried and cried but what hurt most was that i didn’t even find out from her, i read it in a letter she wrote to herself. i know i shouldn’t have read it but i’m glad i did cause now i see her completely differently. she’s no long the my oh-so-perfect big sister. she’s more. she’s suffered something that at the time i didn’t really understand. she’s one of the most beautiful people i know but she’s not perfect. no one is. so please don’t put yourself and the people you love through this. she defeated this disease but what if you don’t? how will it make the people you love feel? i blamed myself for not seeing what she was going through and she survived and it hurts, even now, years later. so please, don’t do this to yourself. people loveyou the way you are.
ibelieveinyou xx

By: DoItAnyway

DoItAnyway — Mon, 21 Jun 2010 06:26:45 +0000

Please don’t.

By: you can

you can — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 02:42:13 +0000

no matter what anyone says or does always believe in yourself and you will be able to stop this. and dont think u have to do it on your own, almost no one does. rely on your friends and family and they will help you out. we will help you out. never give up

By: drew

drew — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 06:09:27 +0000

No:( please don’t you’re making me cry I love you… I do

I promise

By: Chelseaa

Chelseaa — Sat, 20 Mar 2010 22:42:39 +0000

I remember not eating for days.. I was so proud of myself. I was so happy whenever I stepped on that scale and that magic number dropped every other week. I thought I was so happy. But it’s only gonna get worse, and people start to suspect things whenever you stop eating around them. I lost like 25 pounds thanks to bulimia and anorexia. I’m still throwing up and I reeally want help, but i don’t have the guts to tell my parents. I’m going to die from these bullshit ED’s but you don’t have too. Please get help. You don’t have to lose weight this way.

By: TruthBeTold

TruthBeTold — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 04:40:27 +0000

I know it sounds insane, but go for runs hun. I battled eating issues for ages, and not the serious ones that get you sent to the hospital – the ones that fly right under the radar and seem to never really go away. But let me tell you; the feeling of running away weight – it’s invigorating and amazing, and gives you a sense of power. (And you’re less likely to lose your boobs that way, trust me, I hate that mine shrunk!)

By: fml

fml — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 06:10:23 +0000

comments about guys liking women who have “meat on their bones” show how ignorant people are of e.d.s, its not about trapping some man, its about wanting to disappear, to control, to distract yourself from the pain of living….eds are not cured by penis

By: Just that girl

Just that girl — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 23:45:59 +0000

hey, Phoenix, you do happen to be wrong. A lot of anorexics have to assert amazing amounts of control at times.

By: Hannah

Hannah — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 02:42:30 +0000

i had anorexia for six years.
it was completely about weight.
i hated having fat on my body,
and that was an easy way to get rid of it.
so don’t act like you know why every single
person in the world would have an eating
disorder.
maybe some people’s cases are about control.
but you can’t assume it’s the case for
everyone.

By: xlovexmyxbonesx

xlovexmyxbonesx — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 23:58:00 +0000

Hey, I just wanna tell you that it doesn’t have to be this way. Trust me, I know exactly how you feel. For the last 3 years I’ve been battling my own disorders: bulimia, anorexia and self-harming (I seem to alternate between EDs). I was so thin it hurt, I was covered in bruises from my bones and I passed out several times a day. I made myself sick so much I vomitted blood. I cut the word fat into my arm and i’ve tried to kill myself twice. I’ve also been battling addiction to pain killers like paracetamol. I’m guessing your young? Putting it into perspective, I’m just 16. I faced all of this and I’m in recovery from all of it. Admittedly it’s been very difficult, I’m not going tell you it’s not, but it’s worth it. What stopped me was another anorexic girl I was speaking to had 2 heart attacks at 17 and nearly died. I realised that it could have been me. I hope this might save you like she saved me. The best of luck xxxxxx

By: Dizzy

Dizzy — Wed, 30 Dec 2009 00:17:10 +0000

It is horrible that some people THINK skinny defines beauty and that being beautiful determines life value. Please do not fall for this stupidity. There is SO much more to life than a facade.

By: Ferni

Ferni — Tue, 22 Dec 2009 18:46:09 +0000

I guess it must be easy for people such as yourself to talk down to people who maybe are NOT trying to get attention, but crying out for help… ever thought about it that way Zena? And even so, why would you go around posting things that would hurt? I think that Zena is looking for attention herself by posting dumb remarks.

By: Emily Annie Krasinski

Emily Annie Krasinski — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 21:12:54 +0000

Your eating disorder doesn’t love you.

By: mhsvarsitycheerleader

mhsvarsitycheerleader — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 03:14:20 +0000

I love my eating disorder.

By: Nicki

Nicki — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 02:18:47 +0000

i hope someone stops her i wish i could reach out and tell them that theres hope and a way out

By: Josh

Josh — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 22:26:35 +0000

Girl, you’re beautiful. It doesn’t matter if you don’t think so. Don’t let go. Theres so much more left for you. Trust me, I’ve starved myself before. And hey, it’s no picnic. It doesn’t help. It doesn’t make you feel better. You’re worth it. I’ll be praying for you.

By: loveall

loveall — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 08:32:10 +0000

ZENA- just cause you dont understand it, do not put that person down by saying its a plea for attention. so many people want to feel that burn and pain, its not right but its reality of that persons situation and if they cant get it- it can tear someone down without that control. You should not make them feel bad about it, every person goes through life with people like you making them feel bad about their feelings. i dont understand how people can make stupid little comments like that and not realize- what you write can be the last straw for people. i could never live with myself and know i put someone over the edge to take their life. why cant people just be there for others. damn.

think before you speak & love those you do not know nor understand.

By: Iknow your pain

Iknow your pain — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 03:26:35 +0000

All these people leaving comments debating wether its about control, food,weight ect….. thats not the point, or whats important….I know your position Ive been there far more recently then Id like to think. Im 20 years old and weighed about 75-80lbs….its that undescribable satisfaction you get when you throw your dinner up…when your getting more sick everyday. you dont know why you do it. but it feels good and it feels right. its and addiction. a disease. but please tell someone, seek help, its not the right way. i took mine way to far and was in the hospital. to see how much i not only hurt myself but my family and my friends crying and disappointed and praying I didnt die. was enough to make me stop and get help.

please realize its not worth it. if you need someone to talk to please contact me. dont do this to yourself. you have people who care about you. and it took me a long time to realize how selfish it would be to take my life.

email me. thieste0@email.cpcc.edu

the last character before @ is the number 0.

praying for you.

By: Ouch.

Ouch. — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 02:56:43 +0000

Don’t keep hurting yourself. You’ve been hurt before, you’ll be hurt again — adding to it won’t help anything. Fight to be healthy, not sick…

Just imagine the woman you love most in the world (sister? best friend? mother? grandma?) feeling like you do now. Wouldn’t you want to protect her, hold her, put your arms around her and tell her she shouldn’t ever have to feel this yucky and disgusting?

If you have enough love in you to do that for someone else, you can do it for you too… eventually…

Good luck. And Google the ‘suicide hotline’ to call — just to talk to and get another perspective. They’re there to help you get help.

By: becka

becka — Tue, 13 Oct 2009 00:30:07 +0000

i wake up everyday and wish i could eat one simple thing without hating myself. ive had an eating disorder since i was 12, i am now 17 i literally dont remember a single day in the past year where i havent thrown up a meal. one day its going to kill me and i hate myself for it. i feel hopeless, pathetic, and like no matter how many people tell me im beautiful its never going to be true trust me it will consume you. i wake up feeling sick and horrible most of the time i dont want to leave my bed. nothing is as glamorous as it seems. feeling the effects of anorexia will only a temporary fix for what is really underneath. in the end your killing yourself either way.

By: Phoenix

Phoenix — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 19:58:30 +0000

Eating disorders about control (or a lack thereof), not weight. They may be highly related to food and weight, but the root is a lack of control.

By: celly

celly — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 20:58:33 +0000

It’s a postsecret! This is what postsecret is for! Sending in a postcard is like writing in a journal, or writing something anonymously on a toilet stall. It’s not begging for attention, it’s a silent plea for help, and an expression of raw emotion. Deal with it. It’s hard to get help.

By: Anon

Anon — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 18:00:14 +0000

Take it from someone who knows. Your family and loved ones will feel the same painful and sickening effects. Feel them enough, and the psych ward won’t have much sympathy for your yearnings.

By: bryony

bryony — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 01:24:36 +0000

i bet i know who you are
still a fucked secret regardless of food and weight issues.
and eatingdisorders are certainly very very related to food and weight.

By: Zena

Zena — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 03:46:38 +0000

Wow begging for attention much? If I wanted to kill myself I wouldn’t tell random people on the Internet. If you really are sick get help.

By: Emily

Emily — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 22:11:54 +0000

I know exactly how you feel..
its a terrible way to think but the perfect body desired so much that if it isnt achieved this is the only way around it..or so it seems. i love this postsecret. really captures the depth of some peoples thinking. thankyou and i hope you get better, it will take much effort in your part but we can all pull through it. im praying for you xo

By: Manda

Manda — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 22:48:57 +0000

I think anorexic girls are hot. I also think it’s a terrible disease.
But I want it.

By: Courtney

Courtney — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 04:33:22 +0000

please, don’t.
i am crying right now for you, you have too many people who love you and care for you. suicide is permenant, and i am positive that you can and should get through your problem. you’ve already got 24 people that love you, why not care for them too? i will pray for you.

your friend, the world

By: Madison

Madison — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 03:09:17 +0000

It’s obvious that you are truly suffering from this disorder, rather than faking it for attention like so many girls on the internet.
As bad as this sounds, I hope that the feeling of sickness and pain will be your encourgament for getting better. It was mine.

By: Whitney

Whitney — Thu, 28 May 2009 19:37:16 +0000

Feeling the sickening and painful effects can’t make you happy enough to refrain from killing yourself. It doesn’t make sense, because anorexia IS suicide.

Eating disorders are not maintainable. Your body will hold out as long as it can, but if you don’t start feeding it eventually, you WILL die. There’s no way around it. Once your body eats its fat and muscles, it feeds on your organs, which you can’t live without. (That’s only if you don’t have a sudden heart attack based on your body’s shock towards malnutrition.)

Within all of this, while your body shuts down, you will be more miserable than you have ever been in your entire life. That I can absolutely guarantee.

At first, you feel the control you’re after, and it feels GOOD, so good that you become addicted to a point where giving it up seems absolutely impossible. If you keep it up, I promise you will end up having to choose whether to get help or let yourself starve to death, and if you’re already suicidal, what do you think you’ll choose?

My point being, you’re just procrastinating, and I’m guessing that it’s because you want to live. I hope you get help. I did, and I swear it’s worth it.

By: Corie

Corie — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 03:52:24 +0000

Hi,

I just wanted to tell you that I know what that feeling is like. I was anorexic for three years. It ended up destroying me. You’ll get to a point where you won’t care how many people tell you you’re pretty because you think they’re lying or you think that they have no idea what you’re going through or why you do what you do. You will get to a point where even if you wanted to eat a real meal you won’t be able to milk or juice will become your best friend because you will o longer be able to stomache any actual meal. It’s not worth it. I’m not saying this out of fear for what you may do, I am here as a survivor of a disease. I want you to see my scars and know that there is something better than this. Anorexia is not an answer to your problems it’s a demon so fierce that it will tear apart you, your family, and you world. A thousand people will tell you you’re pretty but I wonder if you know that you are worthy. You are worthy of love, you are worthy of a good life, you are worthy of knowing a life without pain, (not death without pain but LIFE). I know I do not know you and I know that in your mind I don’t know who you are or what you’re going through but I do love you. I have been you, I have lived through what you are in. Lastly, I want you to know that it’s not worth it to take your life over this, because it leads to a life time of pain for everyone you ever met and ever loved. It also means that you’re gonna miss out on all the good that’s end store after the storm passes. It will pass, I promise you that. Psalms 40 help me a lot too. If you need me you can e-mail me at cabarnette@live.com. I’ll be praying for you.

By: NotNow

NotNow — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 04:23:23 +0000

That’s sad. Think I’ll now go eat a pancake.

By: Emily

Emily — Wed, 08 Apr 2009 17:58:02 +0000

Please don’t ever kill yourself. Every bit of life is worth it.
My e-mail is edwillia@edisto.cofc.edu. don’t hesitate to contact

By: bubble

bubble — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 16:27:13 +0000

Do not kill yourself.
please
my uncle did and it hurts every day.

By: -

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 11:35:16 +0000

I’ve been there. I’ve been you.
Control is what you need. Ana will not solve it for you.
You can do it yourself.
Prove Ana wrong.

By: anonymous.

anonymous. — Thu, 19 Mar 2009 02:56:45 +0000

Half of these comments are worthless: anorexia isn’t about beauty or fast metabolisms… but you already know this. I can tell based on this postcard, and how hauntingly similar it conveys how I’ve felt for the past three years. The only thing I have to offer to you is that your hands are already writing a suicide note. That’s what anorexia is, at least for some of us. You deserve so much better, I can tell you do just from these two sentences. Maybe you should reach out to someone, if you have someone that will be receptive. I wish you the best of luck.

Also, I just want to say that I recognize every single picture in this postcard. Thinspo, perhaps from a website that starts with an “x”? hahah..

By: Lindsay

Lindsay — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 01:21:55 +0000

I’ve suffered from anorexia for 6 years now and i def know this feeling. i know exactly what is going thru your mind and i know how hard it is.

By: Lindsay

Lindsay — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 01:19:59 +0000

i know the feeling.

By: Josie

Josie — Sun, 15 Mar 2009 09:50:43 +0000

Eating disorder’s aren’t about food or weight.

By: Gabrielle

Gabrielle — Sat, 14 Mar 2009 01:53:40 +0000

I used to feel the same way to be honest i still do. i was never stick thin always muscular and i started to eat lettuce with no dressing and then it switched to eating nothing. maybe a fiber bar a every four days. but i felt the effects after about 6 months. trust me they dont make you feel better. they make you feel worse. You are most likely a very pretty girl. and listen to what everyone else tells you. i wish i could take my own advice. but i finally feel good about myself. only i would like to forget the 5 months i was in a rehabilitation center. Dont let yourself get like that please. If i could change one persons life with my story it would make me so happy. so please, take my advice your beautiful the way you are. i realize now looking back i was no happier being emaciated. it only makes other people scared and worried about you.

By: kbuyy

kbuyy — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 15:05:15 +0000

Dear Friend,
I personally know nothing of what you are going through, and I am sorry that I cannot give you any great advice, but I do know a site that is always helpful. please, go to To Write Love On Her Arms (twloha.com) ALl I can give you is this, life is not easy, I know this because I lost my father and I hate every day without him, but I know he would rather me live my life to the fullest then be sad he is not here. YOU have someone in your life who feels the same way, everybody does. Do not starve yourself for your peers, they are not worth it, do not kill yourself because something isn’t working, it is not worth it. You are living a life and you can become something great, believe in yourself. Reach out to a family member, or a complete stranger, but talk to somebody, anybody.
With Love,
A Friend in PA

By: peartree27

peartree27 — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 03:03:23 +0000

I used to feel THE SAME WAY….and then I felt it. I was so proud, so sick and very lonely. I no longer suffer, I’m stronger for the struggle….talk to others that understand before you resort to such drastic measures….i suggest http://www.something-fishy.org, you could email me too if you like, amandadreyer27@gmail.com

By: jmarks

jmarks — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 22:12:54 +0000

i want to hug u and tell u that u r the prettiest girl in the entire world and that you cant do anything in the entire world to b prettier

By: anonymous

anonymous — Wed, 04 Mar 2009 05:41:22 +0000

you are not just hurting yourself. you are hurting everyone around you. if it’s about being pretty, then you are such a stupid girl. if it’s about control, then you don’t have to do it alone.

By: tilyard

tilyard — Sun, 22 Feb 2009 20:50:04 +0000

please don’t.
i will pray for you.

By: SJRSA

SJRSA — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 22:31:41 +0000

What you are looking for is the sensationalism that surrounds Anorexia, especially on the internet…
And I dont think that is good…
BUT
I like skinny girls, so dont see this as a lecture. Which is what every one else seems to be saying to you.
Just think about that for a bit and check out this post secret..

http://www.postsecretarchive.com/2008/09/12/i-think-id-love-myself-if-i-was-skinny

By: GabbyGinny

GabbyGinny — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 18:13:14 +0000

Please don’t do either of those things, hon. It’s not necissary. I promise your weight doesn’t make a difference to anyone, people will love you just the same. You don’t need to hurt yourself.

By: peacenow

peacenow — Sat, 31 Jan 2009 04:54:28 +0000

okay so two of my best friends in the world have anorexia and it has ruined them…I have tried to support them and help them through it but it isnt that easy…i know that you too have people that care about you as much as I care about my friends even if you cant see it…its silly cause I am lucky to have a fast metabloism but I always wanted to be skinnier even though everyone that met me thought I had an eating disorder…it wasnt till I met my boyfriend that I realized that I am perfect no matter my size and that the right person will love me no matter what size or shape I am..so plese dont change yourself for others be yourself to find the people who deserve you

By: lostfan32

lostfan32 — Fri, 30 Jan 2009 02:12:19 +0000

i want to give you a hug and sucide is not a way. i know first hand…dont give a fuck what anyone says. you are you. most likely pretty, but u see something else in the mirror. use ur hands to create porductivity. at least give something to the world before you go. i did. and change my mind.

By: AliceCullenX27

AliceCullenX27 — Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:45:18 +0000

Hun, I’m sure you are extremely pretty. There is no need for that. You are beautiful no matter what and don’t forget that. If you go and do that you will affect so many people that love you.

By: heartbreakdancer

heartbreakdancer — Tue, 27 Jan 2009 22:58:45 +0000

ohmy. that’s not good. food is great. boys like girls with meat on their bones. “i like love handles because they give me something to hold on too.”