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ohmy. that’s not good. food is great. boys like girls with meat on their bones. “i like love handles because they give me something to hold on too.”

Hun, I’m sure you are extremely pretty. There is no need for that. You are beautiful no matter what and don’t forget that. If you go and do that you will affect so many people that love you.

i want to give you a hug and sucide is not a way. i know first hand…dont give a fuck what anyone says. you are you. most likely pretty, but u see something else in the mirror. use ur hands to create porductivity. at least give something to the world before you go. i did. and change my mind.

okay so two of my best friends in the world have anorexia and it has ruined them…I have tried to support them and help them through it but it isnt that easy…i know that you too have people that care about you as much as I care about my friends even if you cant see it…its silly cause I am lucky to have a fast metabloism but I always wanted to be skinnier even though everyone that met me thought I had an eating disorder…it wasnt till I met my boyfriend that I realized that I am perfect no matter my size and that the right person will love me no matter what size or shape I am..so plese dont change yourself for others be yourself to find the people who deserve you

Please don’t do either of those things, hon. It’s not necissary. I promise your weight doesn’t make a difference to anyone, people will love you just the same. You don’t need to hurt yourself.

What you are looking for is the sensationalism that surrounds Anorexia, especially on the internet…
And I dont think that is good…
BUT
I like skinny girls, so dont see this as a lecture. Which is what every one else seems to be saying to you.
Just think about that for a bit and check out this post secret..

http://www.postsecretarchive.com/2008/09/12/i-think-id-love-myself-if-i-was-skinny

please don’t.
i will pray for you.

you are not just hurting yourself. you are hurting everyone around you. if it’s about being pretty, then you are such a stupid girl. if it’s about control, then you don’t have to do it alone.

i want to hug u and tell u that u r the prettiest girl in the entire world and that you cant do anything in the entire world to b prettier

I used to feel THE SAME WAY….and then I felt it. I was so proud, so sick and very lonely. I no longer suffer, I’m stronger for the struggle….talk to others that understand before you resort to such drastic measures….i suggest http://www.something-fishy.org, you could email me too if you like, amandadreyer27@gmail.com

Dear Friend,
I personally know nothing of what you are going through, and I am sorry that I cannot give you any great advice, but I do know a site that is always helpful. please, go to To Write Love On Her Arms (twloha.com) ALl I can give you is this, life is not easy, I know this because I lost my father and I hate every day without him, but I know he would rather me live my life to the fullest then be sad he is not here. YOU have someone in your life who feels the same way, everybody does. Do not starve yourself for your peers, they are not worth it, do not kill yourself because something isn’t working, it is not worth it. You are living a life and you can become something great, believe in yourself. Reach out to a family member, or a complete stranger, but talk to somebody, anybody.
With Love,
A Friend in PA

I used to feel the same way to be honest i still do. i was never stick thin always muscular and i started to eat lettuce with no dressing and then it switched to eating nothing. maybe a fiber bar a every four days. but i felt the effects after about 6 months. trust me they dont make you feel better. they make you feel worse. You are most likely a very pretty girl. and listen to what everyone else tells you. i wish i could take my own advice. but i finally feel good about myself. only i would like to forget the 5 months i was in a rehabilitation center. Dont let yourself get like that please. If i could change one persons life with my story it would make me so happy. so please, take my advice your beautiful the way you are. i realize now looking back i was no happier being emaciated. it only makes other people scared and worried about you.

i know the feeling.

I’ve suffered from anorexia for 6 years now and i def know this feeling. i know exactly what is going thru your mind and i know how hard it is.

Half of these comments are worthless: anorexia isn’t about beauty or fast metabolisms… but you already know this. I can tell based on this postcard, and how hauntingly similar it conveys how I’ve felt for the past three years. The only thing I have to offer to you is that your hands are already writing a suicide note. That’s what anorexia is, at least for some of us. You deserve so much better, I can tell you do just from these two sentences. Maybe you should reach out to someone, if you have someone that will be receptive. I wish you the best of luck.

Also, I just want to say that I recognize every single picture in this postcard. Thinspo, perhaps from a website that starts with an “x”? hahah..

I’ve been there. I’ve been you.
Control is what you need. Ana will not solve it for you.
You can do it yourself.
Prove Ana wrong.

Do not kill yourself.
please
my uncle did and it hurts every day.

Please don’t ever kill yourself. Every bit of life is worth it.
My e-mail is edwillia@edisto.cofc.edu. don’t hesitate to contact

That’s sad. Think I’ll now go eat a pancake.

Hi,

I just wanted to tell you that I know what that feeling is like. I was anorexic for three years. It ended up destroying me. You’ll get to a point where you won’t care how many people tell you you’re pretty because you think they’re lying or you think that they have no idea what you’re going through or why you do what you do. You will get to a point where even if you wanted to eat a real meal you won’t be able to milk or juice will become your best friend because you will o longer be able to stomache any actual meal. It’s not worth it. I’m not saying this out of fear for what you may do, I am here as a survivor of a disease. I want you to see my scars and know that there is something better than this. Anorexia is not an answer to your problems it’s a demon so fierce that it will tear apart you, your family, and you world. A thousand people will tell you you’re pretty but I wonder if you know that you are worthy. You are worthy of love, you are worthy of a good life, you are worthy of knowing a life without pain, (not death without pain but LIFE). I know I do not know you and I know that in your mind I don’t know who you are or what you’re going through but I do love you. I have been you, I have lived through what you are in. Lastly, I want you to know that it’s not worth it to take your life over this, because it leads to a life time of pain for everyone you ever met and ever loved. It also means that you’re gonna miss out on all the good that’s end store after the storm passes. It will pass, I promise you that. Psalms 40 help me a lot too. If you need me you can e-mail me at cabarnette@live.com. I’ll be praying for you.

Feeling the sickening and painful effects can’t make you happy enough to refrain from killing yourself. It doesn’t make sense, because anorexia IS suicide.

Eating disorders are not maintainable. Your body will hold out as long as it can, but if you don’t start feeding it eventually, you WILL die. There’s no way around it. Once your body eats its fat and muscles, it feeds on your organs, which you can’t live without. (That’s only if you don’t have a sudden heart attack based on your body’s shock towards malnutrition.)

Within all of this, while your body shuts down, you will be more miserable than you have ever been in your entire life. That I can absolutely guarantee.

At first, you feel the control you’re after, and it feels GOOD, so good that you become addicted to a point where giving it up seems absolutely impossible. If you keep it up, I promise you will end up having to choose whether to get help or let yourself starve to death, and if you’re already suicidal, what do you think you’ll choose?

My point being, you’re just procrastinating, and I’m guessing that it’s because you want to live. I hope you get help. I did, and I swear it’s worth it.

It’s obvious that you are truly suffering from this disorder, rather than faking it for attention like so many girls on the internet.
As bad as this sounds, I hope that the feeling of sickness and pain will be your encourgament for getting better. It was mine.

please, don’t.
i am crying right now for you, you have too many people who love you and care for you. suicide is permenant, and i am positive that you can and should get through your problem. you’ve already got 24 people that love you, why not care for them too? i will pray for you.

your friend, the world

I think anorexic girls are hot. I also think it’s a terrible disease.
But I want it.

I know exactly how you feel..
its a terrible way to think but the perfect body desired so much that if it isnt achieved this is the only way around it..or so it seems. i love this postsecret. really captures the depth of some peoples thinking. thankyou and i hope you get better, it will take much effort in your part but we can all pull through it. im praying for you xo

Wow begging for attention much? If I wanted to kill myself I wouldn’t tell random people on the Internet. If you really are sick get help.

Take it from someone who knows. Your family and loved ones will feel the same painful and sickening effects. Feel them enough, and the psych ward won’t have much sympathy for your yearnings.

i wake up everyday and wish i could eat one simple thing without hating myself. ive had an eating disorder since i was 12, i am now 17 i literally dont remember a single day in the past year where i havent thrown up a meal. one day its going to kill me and i hate myself for it. i feel hopeless, pathetic, and like no matter how many people tell me im beautiful its never going to be true trust me it will consume you. i wake up feeling sick and horrible most of the time i dont want to leave my bed. nothing is as glamorous as it seems. feeling the effects of anorexia will only a temporary fix for what is really underneath. in the end your killing yourself either way.

Don’t keep hurting yourself. You’ve been hurt before, you’ll be hurt again — adding to it won’t help anything. Fight to be healthy, not sick…

Just imagine the woman you love most in the world (sister? best friend? mother? grandma?) feeling like you do now. Wouldn’t you want to protect her, hold her, put your arms around her and tell her she shouldn’t ever have to feel this yucky and disgusting?

If you have enough love in you to do that for someone else, you can do it for you too… eventually…

Good luck. And Google the ‘suicide hotline’ to call — just to talk to and get another perspective. They’re there to help you get help.

All these people leaving comments debating wether its about control, food,weight ect….. thats not the point, or whats important….I know your position Ive been there far more recently then Id like to think. Im 20 years old and weighed about 75-80lbs….its that undescribable satisfaction you get when you throw your dinner up…when your getting more sick everyday. you dont know why you do it. but it feels good and it feels right. its and addiction. a disease. but please tell someone, seek help, its not the right way. i took mine way to far and was in the hospital. to see how much i not only hurt myself but my family and my friends crying and disappointed and praying I didnt die. was enough to make me stop and get help.

please realize its not worth it. if you need someone to talk to please contact me. dont do this to yourself. you have people who care about you. and it took me a long time to realize how selfish it would be to take my life.

email me. thieste0@email.cpcc.edu

the last character before @ is the number 0.

praying for you.

Girl, you’re beautiful. It doesn’t matter if you don’t think so. Don’t let go. Theres so much more left for you. Trust me, I’ve starved myself before. And hey, it’s no picnic. It doesn’t help. It doesn’t make you feel better. You’re worth it. I’ll be praying for you.

i hope someone stops her i wish i could reach out and tell them that theres hope and a way out

I love my eating disorder.

It is horrible that some people THINK skinny defines beauty and that being beautiful determines life value. Please do not fall for this stupidity. There is SO much more to life than a facade.

Hey, I just wanna tell you that it doesn’t have to be this way. Trust me, I know exactly how you feel. For the last 3 years I’ve been battling my own disorders: bulimia, anorexia and self-harming (I seem to alternate between EDs). I was so thin it hurt, I was covered in bruises from my bones and I passed out several times a day. I made myself sick so much I vomitted blood. I cut the word fat into my arm and i’ve tried to kill myself twice. I’ve also been battling addiction to pain killers like paracetamol. I’m guessing your young? Putting it into perspective, I’m just 16. I faced all of this and I’m in recovery from all of it. Admittedly it’s been very difficult, I’m not going tell you it’s not, but it’s worth it. What stopped me was another anorexic girl I was speaking to had 2 heart attacks at 17 and nearly died. I realised that it could have been me. I hope this might save you like she saved me. The best of luck xxxxxx

comments about guys liking women who have “meat on their bones” show how ignorant people are of e.d.s, its not about trapping some man, its about wanting to disappear, to control, to distract yourself from the pain of living….eds are not cured by penis

I know it sounds insane, but go for runs hun. I battled eating issues for ages, and not the serious ones that get you sent to the hospital – the ones that fly right under the radar and seem to never really go away. But let me tell you; the feeling of running away weight – it’s invigorating and amazing, and gives you a sense of power. (And you’re less likely to lose your boobs that way, trust me, I hate that mine shrunk!)

I remember not eating for days.. I was so proud of myself. I was so happy whenever I stepped on that scale and that magic number dropped every other week. I thought I was so happy. But it’s only gonna get worse, and people start to suspect things whenever you stop eating around them. I lost like 25 pounds thanks to bulimia and anorexia. I’m still throwing up and I reeally want help, but i don’t have the guts to tell my parents. I’m going to die from these bullshit ED’s but you don’t have too. Please get help. You don’t have to lose weight this way.

No:( please don’t you’re making me cry I love you… I do

I promise

no matter what anyone says or does always believe in yourself and you will be able to stop this. and dont think u have to do it on your own, almost no one does. rely on your friends and family and they will help you out. we will help you out. never give up

Please don’t.

my sister suffered from this. and i didn’t even know. i was young maybe 9 or 10, but that doesn’t matter. when i found out it broke my heart. i cried and cried but what hurt most was that i didn’t even find out from her, i read it in a letter she wrote to herself. i know i shouldn’t have read it but i’m glad i did cause now i see her completely differently. she’s no long the my oh-so-perfect big sister. she’s more. she’s suffered something that at the time i didn’t really understand. she’s one of the most beautiful people i know but she’s not perfect. no one is. so please don’t put yourself and the people you love through this. she defeated this disease but what if you don’t? how will it make the people you love feel? i blamed myself for not seeing what she was going through and she survived and it hurts, even now, years later. so please, don’t do this to yourself. people loveyou the way you are.
ibelieveinyou xx

honestly i feel you are all right. there is no set in stone right or wrong answer because you can never be in another’s head. for one person it is food. for another it is control. but its not worth fighting over. people have their reasons. Accept those reasons and try to help them through it. Thats all we can really do

I wonder if she’s still alive…

It’s not that easy. Eating disorders lie much deeper than one
s relationship with food; it is about control and controlling one’s food intake is a way of getting that. That’s what makes it so hard to treat.