I only cry when I’m drunk
I only cry when I’m drunk….
I’m terrified this is the only time I feel emotions.
but I’m more scared of not feeling anything, which is why I still drink.
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Who drinks? Is this the guy or the girl talking???
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(to mlic) how is that relevant?
I feel like this is my secret. I drink every day because I want to feel emotions, and I can’t feel emotions unless I drink.
If you don’t drink for a 2 months everything will fall back into place. you will have normal emotions. crying when you are drunk is not having emotion…it’s just being emotional. I spent 2 years living this way. I truly believed this. I’m not in AA or anything else. I just quit drinking when i realized how much this was controlling my life. my thought process. for the first couple of weeks it sucks but when you actually hang out sober with drunks you start seeing things differently. when people have “heart to hearts” its rather annoying. drinking is not who you are. alcohol is what it wants you to be. good luck.
I am a herion addict– well that was my drug of choice. Really all i wanted was anything to take me out of myself. After several failed attempts at cleaning my life up, getting off the ‘hard’ drugs (through trying to detox myself anddd going to in and out patient rehabs) I’ve finally gotten over a month with out using any mind altering substances. Sometimes its hard, other times its not so hard. And i know i could not do it with out the Narcotics Anoymonus program. NA helps me stay clean everyday. Now im not saying your an alcholic or you need to go to AA. But i know i’ve felt and done similar things to not feel, or to feel anything and thats what helps me. I know that over a month clean doesnt seem like too long, but while i was using i couldn’t go a day with out using… so to me its a miricle and i’ve seen quite a few in the rooms of NA and AA. i wish you the best with all you do. and i hope my experience can help someone else, because it was a struggle for me to use, and its a stuggle not to use. and many people can relate to the pain.
Agreed, I’ve been clean for over 2 years and I feel better. Which doesn’t mean I feel good all the time, it means I am better able to feel my emotions. The solution for me was in the 12 steps of NA. Give them a try, you have little to lose and everything to gain.
i definitely feel you on that. sucks, eh?
no one is getting this, i realize. whoever made that— he or she doesn’t FEEL. i’m gonna go out on a limb and assume it’s a girl here, ha. she doesn’t drink to not feel, she doesn’t do it for the numbing effects– it’s so that she CAN feel– happiness,sadness,etcetera.
perhaps her walls are built up so high, she can’t even scale them anymore.
i know the feeling.
I feel exactly the same way. I’m a man, and since I hit puberty I haven’t been able to cry almost ever unless I’m really drunk.
Not an emotional person. Nor am I a drinker past the occasional beer. Because of a long story I dont care to explain, my mind associates control and emotion together. If there is no emotion, there is control. Its ingrained that emotion equals a lack of control. I KNOW that its not neccesarily true, but I made that association when I was quite small. Things like that tend not to go away. Anyway, back to topic…never did getting around to finding an outlet.
I understand completely. I don’t drink often but when I do I can actually feel. Other than the times I have drank, I haven’t felt anything strongly in over 4 years
I drink because it makes me not feel emotions. It makes me black out, sleep with strangers, drive drunk and lose respect. But it’s all worth it not to have to feel the pain of my life not being what I want it to be.
right there with you. im more likely to cry about a guy than i am at a funeral