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I just turned 18 this year and am in my first few months of college. Ive never been more terrified.
I just finished school… I don’t want to lose my friends. I don’t want them to forget me. I don’t want to forget them.
Im Kim and those are my shoes. :]
What’s funny is i chose this future, it could have been the class of 2011.
but, I signed that all away.
im terrified too. and i graduate in 09. treasure your time in highscool because before you know it graduation is around the corner
Don’t worry, I was terrified too. Now, three and a half years later, I couldn’t be happier.
I am too– I graduate in ’10, also…two years early. We’ll make it!
College is freaking hard. I won’t lie. I never had to study in my life. You may think that’s a good thing, but it’s because I spent one year of highschool being the most popular kid there, the life of the party. They weren’t so accepting after 2 years in and out of a psych ward and then a final year where I talked to absolutely no one. College has been so much better. It’s so much easier to find people who accept you and to learn to be your real self, not the self everyone else wants you to be. It may be hard, but it’s a wonderful help when you’re trying to be your self without everyone else dictating what you should be doing.
I hope all is well for anyone seeing this and that whatever you’re doing, you know that I care about you. That sounds crazy, but the only thing that keeps me going is that I believe I’m here for everyone else! If you ever want to talk, I’m here. [email protected]
Two years ago I felt the same way. I met the best friends I’ve ever had at college. This is so much better.
That’s life. Deal with it, you Converse wearing emobitch.
Sister,
Since I know this is your secret because I know this picture from anywhere , I want to tell you I’m scared too. I’m scared because its only going to take them a few months to forget we were ever there. The Vernonites won’t even blink. Our orginal class will be sad for a few days when it finally sinks in because sis, we aren’t the kind of people who usually are the first to leave. Were not the losers, we aren’t the emo’s, for god sakes we are THE TWINS. We are the life of the party, the clown of the class, and the best of the best, and the bad thing is, I don’t know if I’m ready for it to be over.
But it is just now hitting us. Me and you rode the bus for the last time yesterday. Gone are the days of old bus 38 and “our” seat on the bus. Monday at eleven our life is going to start.
We’ve made it.
I felt the same way when I graduated from high school in 2007. Some people get married after high school, go to college, start working, go off to the army, or decide to move somewhere else. My advice for you is to relax, worrying is not going to make it any better or worse.
I suggest you try to come up with some ideas of what you might like to do right after high school. I know this sounds scary, but just take it one step at a time. Are you interested in getting a job?…Do you wana get married?….how about college?
Go online and look up what jobs there might be that ure interested in….or go online and look at schools…you can always go to community college…a California State University…or a UC.
As for your friends after high school…you will still talk to some of them…and some you won’t. The ones you do keep in touch with are most likely going to be ure best friends, or people that live near you.
Don’t be scared, there are so many exciting and cool things to experience and see after high school.
I just graduated in June. It’s weird, because after high school ended, I was just at that point in your life that I wanted to move on. The scary thing is, you realize that you are one step closer to becoming an adult and you have to grow up, which freaked me out. My best advice, appreciate your Senior year!! I didn’t, now I wish I had. AND if you choose to go off to college, ENJOY the summer before your Freshman year of college!! Seriously, that was the BEST summer of my life.
So young! So much out there in the world to experience, don’t be scared, be brave – take a chance, be safe and enjoy your life. You have so much more to learn and experience, stay true to your friends, always stick to your plan and live your life!
High school ended for me almost nine years ago — and I still wear the same shoes that you do. ;o)
Life’s not so different on this side.
Its Kim again.
Ive realized the other day, while looking through a 1998 yearbook, that those people didnt want to be forgotten either.
It saddens me everytime i look at my secret on here because deep inside im not scared to go, it’s never coming back that worries the shit out of me.
I know the other side isnt as dramatic as it seems but i mean whats it going to be like the year im not in the yearbook at all? What is my classmates going to be doing? And more importantly, how soon will i be forgotten?
I’m halfway done high school, and I’m scared too.
Trust me, you have NOTHING to be scared of. I have one year left of college, and I wish it hadn’t gone so fast. Everything that comes after high school is so much better than you ever could have imagined.
I graduate in june too…last year I was so scared thinking I’d graduate and losing my friends and long term boyfriend…well I lost both this september and now I’m so excited to graduate and have a fresh start in the real world…believe everythign happens for a reason and whatever life beyond high school brings, I believe (and hope, since I’m not there yet) that it will eventually bring what we need, even if right now we cannot see it
Me too… I could have been the class of 2012, but instead, 2010
i understand. i graduated a year early too. and i was terrified.
i am now in the first half of my sophmore year. im quitting after this, and moving back home and living with my best friend. and ive never been more excited for my future.
everything will work out in the end. if its not alright, its not the end.
I’m class of 2012 and I feel the same way. I’ve never felt as at home or as loved as I do in high school, and I’m so afraid to leave it and all my friends. But it’s something everyone has to do. Everything will be fine.
And fat hemslow, just because you wear converse does not mean you’re emo. And there’s not need to be nasty, if you’re going to be so insensitive, why are you ever bothering to read these?
I graduated in ’08. Could have done it in ’10. Weird to see other early people on the internet like this…
College is the hardest, and best, time of your life. People say high school is the best time of your life, but they must never have made it to college…
Some parts of me still miss the old life though. High school seems so pure, so free in comparison.
I have my last final exam tomorrow. Then, the new semester, the new year, and I step into my shoes a new man again. A college man…
i will graduate 2010 too.
my friends all know where they are going with their lives.
and i have no idea.
ive never been so scared.
Neither one of you should be afraid. I remember feeling the same way when I first went to college. But then one day you realize that whatever happened in high school doesn’t matter anymore. You can be whoever you want. You can recreate yourself if that’s what you so desire. You make amazing friends and learn incredible things…..I grew to love it so much that I’ve been here for 8 years ( I do have 3 degrees out of it). Now I’m afraid to face the world.
i know.
me too.
It’s honestly not that bad. I’m c/o 2010 myself, but I go to a residential high school, and some classes are actually easier in comparison to college classes.
Living away from home or so (with a roommate, in my case) is an interesting experience; you will learn a lot about how to live. But being with others and sharing this period of life is wondrous.
Don’t let any fears hold you back from what can be an amazing period of discovery and growth.
Im terrified to see what comes after high school. I dont want to lose my friends because I doubt Ill be able to make friends as good as them. I feel like my best friend and I are going to lose touch, we kind of already are. I dont want to be alone, I absolutely hate that feeling. Also, I think my boyfriend and I will have the worst problems of our relationship.
im so glad someone else feels the same!
You won’t forget them. I’ve been done with high school for 6 years and I remember all the important people from that time, even the ones I haven’t spoken to since graduation.
Am I the only person who’s not terrified of graduating.. I’m only a freshman and I can’t wait for life after high school!
School is easy, real life is hard and sucks. It was a very rude awakening, Sorry.
Aren’t we all.
“Maybe get your masters, eight more years inside…”
I feel exactly the same, I graduate on December this year (I’m from Latin America) and I have no idea of what to study in university.
It makes me cry when they ask me what I want to study because I don’t think I’m gonna make it. (There goes a secret)
i have 3 days left… i dread leavers day because im not ready to leave.. :s
No matter how terrible your experience in high school seems
what comes next is far, far worse
as we get older we get a lot better at pretending to be happy
(we can even fool ourselves, some of the time)
but everybody really knows, and if you look closely
their eyes are full of screams.
i’ve now left high school, about 3 weeks ago, and i can tell you now, nothing changes. your friends will stay with you, your life will only get better from now on. the rest of your life is ahead, so please don’t worry
today I went to ’09s graduation for my high school. i started crying at the end of the ceremony.i felt really selfish for it because i wasn’t crying for the grads; it was because I know I’ll be in their shoes next year and i’ve never been more terrified. :/
I just graduated this June 2009 standing at the precipice of the rest of your life is scary. All you can do is keep living, and moving forward, and facing the challenges and over coming the fear. Even you if you stagnate the rest of your friends keep swimming up stream. I’m afraid of falling behind.
it gets easier.
I turn 18 tomorrow and start college in a week. I know exactly how you feel.
Your Not Alone
I’m Scared Too
I saw this secret a year ago.
I was terrified then.
I’m still scared that I’m planning on the wrong things.
But I’m pretty sure that even if I do everything wrong, I’ll have time to clean things up and start over. Life is about learning, whether it’s in or outside of school.
Life only gets better after high school…even if you thought you LOVED high school, just wait until you get to college or into the real world. Embrace the change. You will experience things you never thought possible, and will figure out who you are and what you want from life. High school is a fond memory, but is only the very start of your broader life.
And as far as friends go, you keep the ones worth keeping. The rest, sadly, will turn to memories. But those types memories are the ones that show you you’ve lived a beautiful life. Be glad they happened, but don’t cling to them.
summes almost over…im petrified
i was scared too. i graduated almost two years ago and im still floating…..
your not alone. i feel the same way.
same. also realized i’m not good enough for any school I want to go to. awesome feeling
Oi, you’re gonna love it! College was awesome and you meet people who will truly be your friends for life
its more of the same. more school if you go that way, or conforming to the rules of a job. high school just prepared you to be the sheep that our economy needs
i have 3 years left and i already have little panic attacks when i think about it.