Secretly… I’m afraid to be myself
I worry people will hate me because I’m too negative.
I’m also afraid I’ll poison their outlook on life.
I feel like I’m wearing a mask.
I’ve been wearing it for years.
I’m scared to take it off.
I wish you could help me.
yeah I know how you’re feeling. I actually come with a warning like with cigarrettes. “I’m a bad influence and will screw you up if you stay too close too long”
i feel like this is me.
i feel like a always act differently in front of people.
because i feel like if i act like myself, they’ll all hate me.
and i’ll infect them with depression….and bad decisions….and...everything.
like i have a virus or something.
thanks for sharing.
I’m waiting for it all to crash and burn….
again.
my mask is shaped by what my life needs. inside im a hateful person
as long as you dont forget who’s behing the mask.
eventually it just doesn’t feel like a mask anymore.
you just feel changed
I know how you feel. When I act the way I feel people avoid me because I am too negative. So I try to be overly possitive. Now people tell me im obnoxious……you just cant please anyone.
Have you ever heard of Search?
It’s a retreat, I went on one my junior year of high school.
Find one and go on it. It’ll help.
I feel like I’m in love with you even though I’ve never met you.
I can totally relate. Having felt that way most of my life. They have a word for it now…”EMO”… Don’t really agree with it though. I think at times you can’t help but look at the world around you and see it filled with hurt, pain, dissapointment. I was once labelled by a friends mom as being “the most negatibe child” she ever met. That was years ago and nothing much has changed. We pretend to be something other than ourselves purely to be functional. It’s a trade off we make to live amongst others who are not as observant as we are.
People always ask me why I’m so quiet all the time, I tell them I’m a listener. Really, it’s because I never have anything good to say. I’m too critical of people, I’m too negative.
u only got 1 life u know of so poision the world b/c i get bored w/ all the optimism and some negativity might help fix the world
I know how you feel! I am only really myself around my kids and my sister-in-law/BFF…not even my husband sees the real me anymore…he doesn’t like the real me.
“They have a word for it now…”EMO””
BURN!
LOL
I try not to wear masks, I’m so negative, they all hate me and I know they pretend they don’t.
But I wish I could be happy like them.
amen to that. i am so negative, and then i realize, no wonder there aren’t so many people around. but its okay, those who stay, they are the friends of a lifetime. but i do wish too, to be happy one day.
Sounds so much like me … I have become so negative that even when I try to be more positive, people tell me I am not positive enough. I just can’t make myself feel otherwise anymore and don’t know how to change or I am too scared
That’s like me…I’m very negative, but I always pretend to be positive </3
I know exactly how you feel and i want to remove my mask also
but i can’t and….. idk if i’m really trying to
I had the same problem; I only have a past tense there cause I found people to help me remove my mask; it’s to bad those people smoke drink and do drugs; cause now I’m a druggie; and now I can’t remove tat mask.
I’ll tell you something. I am the most negative person I know. Almost every thing i say is negative.
My out look on the world is so bad and so evil i can’t tell everyone every thing i think about this world because it might make them cry.
But you have to look at it this way. It’s who you are, this world no one is ever positive about anything, because it will never come out the way you want. If you think negative ( or at least the way i see it) something could come good out of it.
I really want to know you, because I feel exactly the same, you could save me from myself.
Whats wrong with negative? Whats wrong with being you? If they dont like you then you shouldn’t care.
I know how you feel. I feel like i pretend to be happy just so I won’t make others uncomfortable, but really I’m making myself uncomfortable faking/lying, so I just limit my contact with others so I don’t have to fake it and feel like shit. At the same time I wish there was something/someone to change my negative outlook.
I know exactly how you feel. It’s hard to be “normal” and optimistic when I’m constantly thinking about all the crap that’s happening in the world and the people around me are immersed in petty conversations about relationships or drama. And because you can’t tell anyone what you’re thinking, it just builds up inside. I used to think if I tried to join in and be like them, I would eventually become that person and fit in. But I don’t want to be. And every time I’m not faking the happy person they want me to be, they call me “emo” and “depressed”. I hate my friends, but I’m too afraid to be a loner. I can’t wait to get out of here.
When you look at a rose what do you see the thorns? No. You see a beautiful blossom with petals radiating beauty for al to see. It matters not how sharp the thorns may be for they do nothing to make a rose less beautiful. Masks are just faces shed like the petals of a blossomed rose changed anew as they grow. For it matters not whether a rose is red or blue or black it is beatiful and should be for all to see.
i’ve been there…. the right people will listen.
Stop waiting and start preventing. No one is in control of your life except for YOU. ACCEPT THAT.
I know how that feels…… I used to be talkative, cheerful…everyone still thinks i am… I still tease people, joke and make them laugh, only because I don’t want them to know how negative I can be. I’d rather make them laugh than make them sad. But on the inside I’d be much happier just sitting quiet and reveling in my sorrow……
I know what you mean, I felt the same way.
Then the guy I’m in love with told me none of them would hate me, no matter what.
When I finally was myself, he was right, none of them did.
Only my mom and stepdad did.
Go BrutallyHonest! But I think a lot of people feel this way, at least sometimes. Even me.
exactly the way i feel x
its ok, WE still love you. And I mean WE not just me
I don’t know if that will help, but i dearly hope so.
I build so many masks for me I ended up not knowing who was I. Then, one day, I felt that life is too short to spend it with people who won’t love you the way you are and instead of worrying for them I started caring about me. I don’t know how did I do it but I just broke everything around me and began to behave like I really felt.
Now I have more and better friends than before and though the loneliness feeling doesn’t abandon me completely, I know I can trust them cause the’ll always be there.
My opinion? Being brave is not about being fearless but going throgh your fears.
It could be depression or greif. When you hide it instead of working through the pain, you kinda lose yourself…..and people have this idea that showing emotion or greif is weakness when its not. People hide what they are feeling thinking that they have to “be strong” It takes greater strength to make oursleves vulnerable to people…When we hide and become “lost”, it is even easier to focus on the negative because it gives our minds something to focus on or grab on to… Pick a supportive person and tell them how you are feeling…. and how you feel about feeling that way.. You will find that you have some real friends who will stick with you no matter what. Maybe i am only speaking from my experience and I am not understanding you, but here is a quote I like…
“The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing… not healing, not curing… that is a friend who cares.”
Henri Nouwen
I feel this way too. When I try to be positive, the reaction people feel is that I attack them. So there I am holding myself back, never letting anyone in.
I agree. I’m a very negative person, and now I’m too scared to talk to people or do anything fun because people think I’m a downer and avoid me.
I know what you mean, I myself hold a ‘mask’ of joy and am wanting someone to see past it and see me. so far only one person has tried and they pushed me away.
Just be sure to take off your mask before it becomes your face. I wish I had. I am a much less creative person with it on.
When I read this I was terrified that it was my best friend posting. I had to look at the year to make sure it wasn’t. I would be one of the ones she’d call out to. How do I help? I’ve tried everything. Please.
You have to be as you are, negative or not, you can’t bottle it up, it’ll never help, and it’s really quite hard to poison someone else’s outlook on life. So, heres some advice, be as you are, you can’t rely on other people to help you. Take off your mask, it’s the best thing you can do.
Its really hard to ever get outta the depression I will say that now but keep trying to look at the bright side and the people that dont exsept you for who you are dont deserve to be near you and when people see the real you they will love you. =)
I know that mask. I can tell you about it if you want.
I used to wear a mask, too. I didn’t really have anything in my life. Not like my older sister who had fun, friends, happiness, all the things I wanted. So I started to copy her, deciding that if I acted exactly like her then maybe I could get all the things she had. After a while, I could barely tell who I was and who the mask was. As I got older I realised that my sisters life wasn’t as amazing as it had looked when I was younger. And so I moved on, found myself again and I am starting to see what it is like to be happy as me, not as anyone else. I took off the mask and it was the best thing I ever did.