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Comment by lynne
2008-08-24 19:09:38

me too….:(

 
Comment by Happy
2008-11-25 23:50:56

Even though I’m very pro-choice, I can’t imagine the kind of pain of regretting you can feel from that. I feel for you.

 
Comment by may girl
2008-11-26 21:42:30

me too…..

 
Comment by Kelsey
2009-01-22 17:32:18

Many women relate to this secret, myself included.

 
Comment by Carrie
2009-03-13 12:50:53

I thought so too… but I have a beautiful son now and a precious daughter on the way. I’ll never forget the one that couldn’t be or the father who didn’t stop me.

 
Comment by laura
2009-03-16 16:15:13

I used to worry the same thing too… until I got pregnant again…
now I’ve had two abortions.

Comment by Ericka
2009-07-09 01:43:22

Maybe you should get fixed.

Comment by emilydawn
2009-07-14 21:09:34

I agree, I understand having one abortion because you can’t take care of it for financial reasons and whatnot but having another is just careless killing, there are ways to control pregnancy, you shouldn’t have to learn that twice

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Comment by george Subscribed to comments via email
2009-07-23 07:45:54

its beyond me as to how judgemental some people can be. having an abortion is clearly a hard decision to make and one thats not made lightly be it once or twice. you dont know the reasons why this person had an abortion either time. maybe the second time she was in a worse situation than the first? unfortunatly its all to easy to judge when you’ve seen an anonomously posted paragraph but words can a powerful tool. unequiped with the facts are you really in a position to pass judgement?

 
Comment by Ray
2009-08-25 12:47:53

I am compleatly pro choice, and i think abortion is awfull once, so twice is just horrific.

 
Comment by Courtnny
2009-11-12 02:03:59

I agree with abortion if it’s for a reason (eg. rape, incest, financial problems, mother’s health etc.) and I also believe that you shouldn’t judge people before you get to know them. You don’t know this woman or what her situation was during the times of both the abortions. I mean how would you like it if someone judged you before they know who you are?

 
 
 
 
Comment by Brittany Subscribed to comments via email
2009-03-20 18:29:19

I had an abortion at 18. && The daddy did try to stop me. He actually begged but I was set on not “ruining” my life. Now I am 26 and have been trying since 23 to get pregnant by my wonderful husband. We are having no luck. He went and got checked he is absolutely fine. && I am too terrified to tell him that I had an abortion before && afraid of what the doctors might say. I feel like since I robbed my ex of his baby that god is punishing me.

Comment by Helen
2009-04-30 11:55:30

Sorry but this is complete nonsense.

Comment by why?
2009-07-05 22:29:40

why judge?

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Comment by shannon Subscribed to comments via email
2009-11-30 07:45:30

I can’t imagine why you would not give the baby to the father that begged for his childs life. If my boyfriend had the power to kill OUR baby without my permission while I begged for it’s life, I would be DEVESTATED.

 
 
Comment by olivia7
2009-03-20 21:20:12

I too had an abortion. It was my ex boyfriends baby, I didn’t tell him or anyone because I knew he would try and stop me. I broke up with him and pushed him away soon after because the constant guilt of what could have been. Now I wish I had told him and that he did stop me. He was my first love and only love. He would have been by my side through thick and thin. Now he’s by someone else’s side. I hate that I realize now that trying to erase him from my life wouldn’t erase the guilt of killing our child. I only destroyed two of the best things I’ve ever had.

 
Comment by amanda
2009-04-08 18:55:29

i feel this same way, except i had a miscarriage. i would never judge a person based on their personal choices, but i am VERY por-life and i feel sympathy (i know thats not how to spell it lol) towards all of you mothers that aborted. there are numerous places that will counsel you over this depression you may be feeling. i hope you all find peace some day. =]

Comment by amanda
2009-04-08 18:55:56

i meant *pro-life.

 
 
Comment by friday it happens
2009-04-30 07:43:48

i agree sadly… the death is happening tomorrow for that little fetus, and a huge part of me will die as well.

 
Comment by alexa Subscribed to comments via email
2009-05-01 15:02:14

For other women who feel guilty and who feel trapped by past decisions, know that there are people out there who are praying for you – for healing and for peace…. God Bless you all

 
Comment by BlueEyes23 Subscribed to comments via email
2009-06-12 15:02:51

i went into mine thinking i was doing the right thing and then when it was actually happening i found myself balling and hurting so bad inside i thought i would lose my mind… that feeling went away and i was numb for a while, always thinking about it and him. now i have a strange habit of counting off how old she would be today… it doesnt hurt so much anymore and i am hoping and praying that i will have a baby soon. im scared that first time was my only chance…im scared that he was my only chance.

 
Comment by den
2009-06-13 21:04:34

I was married and never told my husband. I just think about how another child would have had such a negitive impact on our already troubled life together. I was able to get out of that terrible marriage and make a better life for myself and my child. If I had two kids to care for, I could not have finished college when I did and would not have met my new husband, who is awesome. Life is good now.
And I don’t think God is going to punish you for making the decision that was right for you at the time. I don’t think God works that way.

 
Comment by knuck
2009-07-02 10:28:15

well, looks like god’s sending you to hell…

j/k i hate pro-lifers… if you got pregnant once, you’re fertile, prob be able to have many more abortions!

2010-01-13 16:03:00

Considering the fact that some women regret aborting one baby for several years after (maybe even to the end of her life) I don’t think that having “many more abortions” will be a wise choice.
Then again, it all depends on how many murders a woman can carry on her conscience.

 
 
Comment by Dani
2009-07-09 09:41:33

I had a name for my baby and everything. I had a plan to run away with my best friend, and we were going to raise my child. A couple of 16 and 17 year olds, haha. Good one. When my parents found out, the decision was mine. And now my baby’s gone, and everyday I wonder if it was a boy or a girl, and every month I know they would be a little older. 13 months old. Almost to the day….

 
Comment by anbhmn Subscribed to comments via email
2009-07-14 18:20:49

While I understand, I don’t personally feel this way but I DO hope that you can see past the dark time in your life and look toward the light. Remember that even if it can’t happen, there are thousands of children out there who’s parents abandoned them and they deserve loving homes too.

There are also many programs that talk to girls considering abortion over adoption. Who knows, maybe you can use the regrets you have to stop another girl from having them and use her as a surrogate.

 
Comment by estabien
2009-07-27 11:10:45

me too…me too

 
Comment by Jessica
2009-08-23 10:14:54

I know that pain to. Hopefully God will forgive me someday, but for me it was the best decision to make.

 
Comment by Facebook User
2009-09-02 14:34:56

oh my God, oh my God…I’ve thought the same thing ever since….it’ll be my punishment June 9, 2008, a piece of me literally died.

 
Comment by Christine
2009-10-19 18:53:25

I worry about that everyday. It’s only been a month and three days. I’m not sure I’ll make it through.

 
Comment by Mother of 1
2009-11-02 09:52:25

I too had an abortion at 17 not because I wanted it..because HE wanted it. He told me if I didnt have an abortion HE would kill himself because I was ruining his dream of being accepts to the Medical School of New York. I will regret this decision for the rest of my life. I now have a beautiful daughter and thank god everyday for her presence.

 
Comment by c
2009-11-05 13:29:55

i’m still a kid. i think i would get an abortion. either that or, go away, because i’m afraid of how my strict family would judge me.. but most of all i’m afraid of what he would have to give up.

 
Comment by hopeful
2009-12-05 10:30:31

I read this and cried. I have had one miscarriage and 2 abortions because I was young and financially unstable. My current BF knows about my past and has been wonderful. I was told by my doctor that my chance of trying to have a baby were slim to none. I found out last week that I am pregnant. I am happier than he will ever know and he does not want to be a dad again.

 
Comment by teresa Subscribed to comments via email
2009-12-10 16:57:26

i read this whole string. i haven’t told the father that i am a: pregnant and b: have a termination scheduled for next week because i actually like him. for someone with little conscience, this is surprisingly plaguing. if i tell him, then he will know how careless i was; if i don’t, nothing changes except me.

Comment by Don't
2009-12-17 06:39:18

Don’t do it. The life inside you deserves a chance to live. Tell the father and cancel the termination. Don’t live your life with that hanging over you. If you feel like your not ready find a family to adodt the child. You don’t have to do this.

 
Comment by Hmmdancer
2009-12-30 15:46:47

Both of you have responsibility. Unless he was personally watching you take birth control pills every day, you can’t say it’s all your fault, just as if you’d assume he’d know how to put on a condom properly but let it slip in haste. I don’t judge you for your decision (Even though I’m prolife), however you as a partner have an obligation to tell him on some level (and your conscience knows it too!). By looking at all the previous posts you can see the majority of people would’ve rather gone by the honest route.

 
Comment by teresa Subscribed to comments via email
2010-06-02 09:57:47

i had the termination and eventually told him. he was a gentleman. i was not ready and despite the grief involved, believe this was the best choice. …and regardless, i have changed

p.s. adoption is a great way to go, i would love to see all of the children on the waiting list get adopted (social work is my field)

 
 
Comment by Aleyna Subscribed to comments via email
2009-12-22 17:26:00

I completely feel for you. It’s my one thought every single day, and i will never be able to shake that. . .

 
Comment by Coco
2009-12-30 00:35:57

Im pro life… I had an abortion 9 mo after my second child was born…I dont regret it, I dont cry about it , and Im not sorry…did I mention Im atheist

just my 2 cents

 
Comment by friend99
2010-01-17 06:52:03

I know exactly what you mean. Its the scariest feeling of all.

 
Comment by Jill
2010-06-03 10:11:33

People are sick. It’s called adoption you assholes! Let the innocent children who are a product of your stupidity at least have a chance at life; a chance at being a better human being than you are.

 
Comment by Black Subscribed to comments via email
2010-06-17 11:26:31

You people are all jerks. How dare you judge someone for choosing to not bring a child into the world before they’re ready! If my mother had had any brains she would’ve aborted me when she was a pregnant teen instead of having 3 more kids and forgoing to get any kind of education or career.

 
Comment by asdfghjkl;
2010-07-16 22:16:09

whatever, juzt use a fucking condom. damn,

 
Comment by teresa Subscribed to comments via email
2010-07-17 07:11:59

agreed!

 
Comment by kabien Subscribed to comments via email
2010-07-25 12:45:55

I found out recently that my aunt had gotten pregnant with a child while she and my uncle were trying to work out their marital problems. He had just had an affair, and she knew that he wouldn’t be around long, so she had an abortion. When my uncle found out, he divorced her. My aunt is the only one of my uncle’s former wives/girlfriends that I have ever liked, and for my uncle to have caused her that much pain pisses me off. Even more, I keep thinking of my little cousin and what kind of person he/she would have been and I honestly want to hate my uncle for stealing my chance at having a cousin to grow up with. I don’t hate people that have abortions, I just wish that they realize that they aren’t the only people affected.

 
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