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I am addicted to porn.

my parents spanked me but i never considered it abuse because i cant think of a time i didnt deserve it. i’ll spank my children

my dad did the same to me. sometimes i couldn’t sit for days, so my mom would keep me home from school, where my unemployed hungover alcoholic father would “spank” me for some other horrible thing i’d done, like turning on the tv.

Yeah, my dad did the same thing to me. The first time was when I was 5. My mom found out because I couldn’t sit down in the tub. She forbid my father from hitting me again, so he did it when she was out of the house. I hid it from her because I thought it was my fault for being bad.

Finally, 8 years later he did it to my brother (for the first time. It was always me) while my mom and grandma were in the house. My mom exploded all over his ass, and my brother said “It’s no big deal, mom, she gets it all the time.”

That’s how I found out. I had been blocking it out for years.

The worst part is, from seeing all the violence, my brother tries to get abusive with me all the time, and since I don’t want to spend my life fighting him, I can’t have a relationship with him. My mom cries and begs me to give him more and more chances, but every time I do, he always ends up threatening me.

Although I was suicidal until I turned 30 because of this mess, I have forgiven my father for what he did to me, As far as I can see, without laying a hand on him except that one time, he ruined my brother much worse, he is a desperately unhappy bully and for that I will never forgive my father.